Jiah ne zindagi jeeliya...!!

I can totally relate or I think most of us can relate to the feelings mentioned in the note, like loving the other person a lot, expecting a lot from them as well, going beyond all means to satisfy the other person in the relationship only to be dumped in thoughts, you put in 100% expect at least 50 and that does not happen, one is disillusioned.

There are many women who get raped in a marriage if doing it against will is considered one, there are a lot of guys/girls who are insensitive to the partner's needs of having a kid, forcing them either to have or not to have.. in short it is unfortunate that such things are a part and parcel of life where we take it in our stride, blame our fate, resign ourselves to it and move on... or rebel, take a stand, go against the preset societal normal and face a different kind of issues or just give up and die.

I do not support the girl, i dont blame her either... but to blame just the guy for everything going on in her life, forgetting the brought-up, the emotional turmoil, the support system she had or she had not and plunging on the guy screaming blood is wrong (purely personal opinion).. there are a lot of factors which drive a person to death, all the doors closed, there should be at least a window and apparently she had none! the mom apparently knew she was in an abusive relationship, the guy was irresponsible as she put in her own note, selfish, thinks about himself, no perspective in life, apparently a brat, he used her and abused her... then what has been done by them to prevent the unfortunate eventuality considering this is her second attempt at taking her own life.

 Mahesh Murthy is blunt, brutal and has one-sided dark view of things, in this case in question at least. quite a few things are unclear, so i dont think anyone here is right or wrong absolutely.

Time and again when some starlet from industry is affected by this mess, concerns arise, people tend to question themselves but then as the condolences are over, it is behind us and one is back to the grind chasing their own dreams or demons

the bratty lifestyle, the parenting, the conflicts in and around the house, false hopes, unreasonable expectations, loss in touch with reality and real life challenges, living in a bubble of illusions, addiction to fame, stardom, disappointment by failures, struggle and inability to do a reality check and get in terms with facts... n number reasons.  If it comes to abetment of suicide or whatever it is each and every one of the people around her should be blamed  

Two more

Mirchi
Liked Prabhas a lot in the movie, a good time pass...rivalry, family values, getting the villian gang changed, marrying the girl from the house is the routine, the twist in the tale is that the guy trying to do this is the rival who loses his mom and realizes the value of peace and staying together... can watch once... good one!

Tadaaka
Chaitu is good, Sunil is convincing but something did not work... too much of violence with a tinge of comedy.  Tamanna is totally wasted in the movie.

more movies

No matter what my movie watching spree never stops

Badshah
Somehow lost track of the movie halfway through, did not like it.. Mafia, crime syndicate, mixing with them, revenge... blah, blah, blah... A few weeks down the line.. neither do I remember anything about it nor is there anything worth... He better focus on what he knows best, acting, than getting into petty politics to shift his focus.

Shadow
Baboye, another bundal movie.   I am beginning to hate the roles Tapsee does in the movies these days, skin show and more of it and that begins and ends there.. phew and Venky what does he think he is doing at 52, that hairstyle, that choice of movie...

Greeku Veerudu
Liked the flow of the movie, felt like it is another variation with a different angle, much much similar to Santosham, feel good, eye candy movie.  Nag seems older, age is certainly catching up but this is most certainly a simple, sober movie.

Saarostaaru
An average movie with an interesting story line, nothing new but just a new twist, okay to watch once.  Ravi Teja is getting old and it shows, he is most certainly a hardworking actor and carries the role with ease, the face has a different story to tell altogether.

Raaz - 2
A very violent movie dealing with revenge and supernatural forces and all that.. Kangana's face struck to be very odd, something wrong with her lips, here good there bad.. too much of violence made it almost repulsive, never could have watched it in theater..

Of them all, I loved the re-run of Mithunam, just fell in love with this movie and each time I see it, it only increases that love...

so here ends my movie watching, reading, working quota for the day and off I go to play with the kid in the play area... 

Pondering

Of late, I have been hearing a lot of news wherein very young people in their late 30s or maybe even early 30s succumbing to some heart problems or other ailments... with that comes a feeling of our own time running out and the terror of leaving behind the ones we brought into life alone in this big world... too many thoughts, does she need a sibling after all, one with whom she is biologically connected to, how much is enough to keep her secure and what security are we talking about... how do we get ready to such an event.  In our here today and gone tomorrow lives how do we ensure that we give them the right values/right attitude to keep going without us...

too many thoughts, too much to share but too much of procrastination... NOTHING WAITS in life.... take a break and relax to enjoy the smallest of small pleasures and give away biggest of big stresses...

The Lady On My Left - Catherine Cookson

The old world feel read set in UK, the auction houses, the love between a girl and her caretaker much older than her, goodie goodie with a tinge of negativity and villiany :) .. feel good book.

Felt like I was reading a non-detailed text book or something :).

Social Suicide - Gemma Halliday

What is more important than the book itself about this book reading is that I did it in Morgan Falls Park overlooking the lake in a swing, lying down with a pillow and a comforter on the swing when the kid played around happily in the play area take care of by OA, so no matter what the book is bound to be a super hit by any standards to me :-p

In the setting of a school campus, it has a young feel to it, the story of a girl working for a school magazine who ends up being at a place where a twitter-cide happens and then a few more things leading to the person leaking the question papers for the tests/quizs depriving the hardworking students of their merit credit for making a few quick bucks... entertaining read!

By Mistake in The Hindu... :-p

Dileep who is no longer in ekantam :-p and has a junior in his beautiful world to make it even more brighter pings me up once in a while and keeps tabs on what is happening, which I must say am not so good at, sorry my dear blog buddies I am busy getting back to all my school buddies :), so the queue is a bit too long I guess :-p

... coming to Dileep and me, we have this run-to-him-with-tech-issues thanks to my technically challenged blogging skills, so the point of the whole introduction and all this koti-kommacchi is that he brought to my notice that my blog url appears in "The Hindu"  HERE which says

Srinidhi, an Area Sales Manager for Asian Paints in Mumbai, ‘rambles’ on almost anything under the sun in his Sreeszone.blogspot.com 

well, if it comes to the rambling, I am most certain this reference is to my blog because that is what I do all the time but coming to me being Srinidhi, the area sales manager, I am not... so Ms. Swati Sanyal Tarafdar, this is to let you know that I am neither Srinidhi, nor do I make any money through my blog or run any business establishment or showcase any of my technical/cookery/arts&crafts or any such thing. :).

Yumm!

Wow... Mahesh Babu in SVSC is sooooooooooo yumm!! the more I see that guy, the more is this gooey chocolaty feeling... so cutely perfect.. each time I think I am beyond this school girl crushes, this guy just brushes it aside... yum, yum, yum... can anyone really beat this cuteness ever... emo mari, for me, not ever avvocchu... the one hero whose movies I can watch n number of times without ever complaining is he...

naaku paityam perigindi ani janaalaki anipiste andule tappemi ledu adi nijam, nijam.. :)

A quick hello

this post is for swati from the comment post... I tried calling up, but you did not pick it up, can you please give me your mail id if it is that important to talk!

Share Your Dabba~

Something shared on FB that really touched my heart, unstoppable tears when I saw the kids eating the food eagerly... every child deserves a lot more than this!

Whats up

So, after a long hiatus I am back. What is actually happening is... nothing really... I was kind of addicted to the TV/movie/book and FB thing to find time to blog.  There were a lot of times I kind of made these imaginary blog posts that I wanted to put on here but then dwindled away, busy watching all sorts of things...

so what have I been doing...

watching The Kennedys  TV series about the Kennedy Family and the curse of Kennedys.
Watching Balika Vadhu, Madhubala without fail every single episode :-p.
Watching a movie every single day, no matter how boring.
Reading a book almost every day, a few pages at least.
taking the kid to the play area.

Of useful things, no I have not yet learned driving or even put an effort to read through the book and take that online test to even make me eligible for the learning :-p.

The kid got into the govt. sponsored lottery for pre-k, so happy, happy..

Got a much needed break in the form of Isha yoga and the inner engineering course in Atlanta by Sadguru, so add some me time to the routine.

A busy busy not so busy life as usual...

Good thing is cutting down on consuming cooked food, reducing garlic/onion intake.. and trust me it has cut down my cooking cleaning into half.

The OA got to his ideal dream weight and waist size leaving me looking a family Jumbo.. the kid and the OA put together weigh less than me and I guess that is something really really really bad and need to be looked at seriously!!!

Spring is kind of out, early summers, the apartment unknowingly had been a right choice, it has enough light but aptly covered by trees so that it is not hot yet bright throughout the day.

Kid is progressing good, celebrated her 4th birthday and my 35th... midlife crisis is not yet happening or maybe it is and I am not aware...

Have not touched my picture blog in a while, bad... too many opportunities but nothing really captures my fancy any longer, it is just the kids crafts, our outings or somethings like that, so it is hold for unknown time.

Got a mobile finally, and like it had been my choice, a pre-paid, very simple model because I hardly use it and the only time I need it is to ask the OA to pick me up from the place he has dropped me and for that a simple missed call would do :-p... yes, yes, nenu ee vishayamlo maatram piccha kakkurthi :-p.

and that is it from me... hope all of you are good too...

Untouchable - The strange Life and Tragic Death of Micheal Jackson- Randall Sullivan

well, you know my obsession with something I pick on and like OA says my latest muse is MJ.. found yet another bulky book on him and got it.. this one is better than the previous one throwing in an insight into a lot of things of MJ's life in a less biased way...

good read

Breakfast in Bed - Sandra Brown

First read of this author, did not have any clue what it had in hold for me, just picked it on an impulse, it being a large print and a cute pleasant cover page.. :).

A typical M and B style book.. heavily descriptive not my style of a read but for a change after a looooooooooooooong time, so could actually read it cover to cover :-p.

One Day At a Time - Danielle Steele

DS writing is all about romance, families, stories there in... of hope, happiness, living happily ever after, finding hope after betrayal, dealing with sadness, re-grouping life together despite trying situations that life throws us with..

It is yet another simple book about a couple who meet in most unusual circumstances.. this time, the scene shifts to hollywood, from a family of highly accomplished professionals, the heroine is made to feel down because of her choices towards normal life and living the way she wants it.  A high-fi writer mom who gets into relationship with a guy 24 yrs. younger when her husband dies, a homosexual sister who gives birth to a baby boy with artificial insemination, a dog and mourning a boyfriend who died 2 yrs. ago leaving her with a cabin house near the beach, leading a solitary life as a dog walker, falls in love with a legendary British-born hollywood hero, divorced, with a daughter.  The way they fall in love with each other and how the girl gets to a life which resented all through of fame, celebrity lifestyle, media intervention and all...

One day at a time towards a wholesome love life to a couple... good read!

One Amazing Thing - Chitra Banerjee Divakaruni

Yet another pick of the author... once again it is about the stories healing pain and giving hope.

It is about 9 people who remain in the visa/passport office in an unnamed American city one late afternoon when earthquake strikes leaving them all under the half-fallen roof, cut off power supply and phone connections, waiting for some help.

the group is a mix of all people, an ABCD from Bengali family whose parents have gone back to India for good, who is in a live-in relationship with a guy, just going on an impulse to India to visit her parents, having her own insecurities about loving and giving.  An American-born muslim who is struggling the fall out of 9/11 and the difference meted out to them in light of the terrorist activity, leaving their family shattered.  An American couple, a banker who feels out of place without number crunching and a wife who feels loveless, the bank staff, Indian manager and a clerk with their own personal conflicts and confused about the relationship growing between them.  A granddaughter and grandmother, of chinese origin with a past of their own... and an African-American kind of equipped with crisis management... how they all come together to survive waiting for the rescue team to find them, how the hope diminishes by the moment but they hang on to each other with the help of stories and stuff gets the story together...

It has the same gripping narrative but to an average simple reader like me the reality kind of dwindles into story telling and the ending untold, a typical author style... 

liked it though.

Movies Post :)

Gundello Godaari:
Art cinemaki takkuva, commercial cinemaki ekkuvagaa undi but must say captured the essence of life in villages very well.  Manchu Lakshmi has a very nice taste but the skin show of Taapsee is always a put off to me in any movie she acts,  I somehow find it very cheap and disgusting more than anything!  Set in the backdrop of floods in Godavari district is a story of a newly wed couple, who for different reasons get married to one another while they have in the past loved someone else.  At first they just want to die in the flow of water but as they get to reveal their pasts, they form a bond and how they struggle to live.  Though the climax of floods and the way they are lost and found is too much filmy, the rest of the film has that native feel..

Gowravam
Allu Sirish enchakka magazine pettukuni nadipestunte hammaya okkadikainaa audience meeda jaali undi murisipoyaa, cut cheste baabuki kooda cinema bug kuttesindi... :-p.

Gouravam - As the name suggests, the story line is around honor killings and the deep-rooted caste barriers still existing in some rural areas. It is undoubtedly good, heroine is kind of cute... BUT... aa hero enti, aa execution enti... aa good concept, better than a lot of senseless commercial flicks... now wondering how would Chaitu have carried it off.

 Sirish looks like another E-TV suman as an actor in the making... Energy and talent channelized in the wrong direction!

Gunde Jaari Gallantayyinde
A good one time fun watch movie.  Liked the confusion and commotion in the movie, seemed like a tried and tested formula but Nitya and Nitin gave it a cute feel.. Finally he seems to me having some sense in signing movies and Nitya for some reason reminds me of Soundarya, I think, dubbing in her own voice and a cool choice of movies.

Swamy Ra Ra
It is a different movie with scenes copied from a lot of places and yes the director is very right in the disclaimer that he copies every scene  that he likes when we watches a movie.  The stolen antique, how it lands up with petty thieves and an innocent blabber-mouth Swathi who actually thinks the hero works for HP :-p and a software professional forms the first part and the rest is up to these 3 without the knowledge of the heroine get tangled in a mess of finding out the statue they mistakenly sold to an antique smuggler to get the girl back and how in the bargain they end up with quite a lot of money forms the rest.  Seemed like a typical RGV entertainer but loved it.

Music is really really good, loved it.

Takita Takita
A very old Bhumika produced movie, had a fresh feel to it, actually enjoyed watching it.  It is a college tale, a story mixed with life, fun, realities in college life, the common misunderstandings and happy endings.

16 Days
I dont really understand what Charmee would have thought when she signed this movie... an innocent guy in search of job lands in a mess where 2 gangsters pitch him opposite one another to kill the heir.  He, with the help of Charmee an orphan who does a job for a living but stays in the houses of people who go out of station at nights, comes out of it, killing them all and putting an end to this mess.. unrealistic, messy messed up movie!


Thanks Maa -
A movie brutally honest about shocking realities in society that do exist, no matter how much we would like to look other way. After watching this, one cannot really look at the street kids the same way without any lingering thoughts as to what made them what they are.

A heart-rending tale of a street kid, left in a govt. hospital by his mom at birth, treats the watchman to liquor in search of his birth mother.  He ends up having a small baby boy in his life and is determined to find his mother, how he protects the kid and eventually when he finds the situation in which that kid is born and left (a incest of father and daughter) ends up leaving him in an orphanage but wanting to put his name as mother.  Every scene is heart-touching and would leave one wondering about harsh realities of life.. A really great effort!

Vicky Donor
This movie deals with the social stigma of being a sperm donor.  How it is looked up on and how it actually works out in a really funny but revealing way.  Liked watching it.  Yami Goutam is my new favorite heroine, she looks really good.

Atlas Shrugged

My first stint with Ayn Rand was 10 yrs. ago when my brother would not stop praises about "The Fountainhead" and to this day, it remains the only book that I never really got beyond the first page :-p. To me, Fountainhead is above my head :-p but of late, RGV (yup, another maverick like me) got me back to her and this time I chose Atlas Shrugged.

God, she is one genius, a writer who thought ahead, predicted ahead, the virtue of selfishness, altruism, the political connect to what she said about 50 yrs. ago would happen, what she tried to put forward, just amazing.

Was surprised to see so much negativity this book attracted during her lifetime, thinking ahead of time was her greatest flaw I guess.

She is no doubt going to be a cult figure in the literary circles forever and I, for one, just got in :).

Pent-up

I have come to realize that the worse thing a loved one can do to another is NOT TRUST and make the other feel it. The feeling of mistrust, however minute it is, just throws me off into a tangent. Lack of mutual trust in a relationship leaves nothing there in it to even try to work on!

Something which threw me off the hook a few years ago, I just hope I have the strength to tide it through... blowing a whistle on it ,does it help... got to see!

Gudla Veta - The egg hunt

Everything is so commercially done out here in US, like the valentines day parents flock the stores buying goodies for school... or name it a day and you find the wares.. the latest is the eager egg craze and yes, as much as the kid enjoyed collecting the eggs, as much as the parents were eager for the pictures of the kid to be taken and stored, I still feel some materialistic tinge to it... or I am just plain crazy to enjoy those tiny little pleasures... hmmm!

Youtube Movies

I am actually enjoying watching movies on youtube more than I thought... so it is a movie a day marathon these days, good quality ones mostly both print wise and content wise.  keep a movie, do the household chores :)... aadutu paadutu pani chestunte days are gone I guess, choostoo vintoo pani chestunte... :)

16 December
Typical defense forces movie busting the revenue crimes in India, money in Swiss bank used to buy weapons to destroy India by Pakistani who is upset about his nation's surrender in the war between nations... okay watch.

Naina
Naina - A reasonably good movie in horror genre that I happened to watch of late.. Urmila is the only one that comes to my mind for such roles, she blends in so perfectly. But for some dragged scenes, the overall impact is noteworthy. No link whatsoever but reminded me of Kokila (old Naresh, Sobhana flick), the corneal transplant part I guess. Must agree, Indians do copy things in a class of their own, our very own version of "The Eye".

Tahaan
A children's film, touching about the innocence of a child, love towards his family, friend Birbal, a donkey, the way he goes just about this close to commit a crime to get it back but holds himself back... the movie is all about childhood, innocence, the struggles of people near the border, where living each day is a struggle in itself, getting by without the man of the house, bringing up children, some subtle things... and most importantly a very sad truth how violence lurks all around them when they are so helpless and how it gets them into its grip..

Komaram....??? Puli

I have not seen this movie earlier, but had some really crazy reviews about it... but now when I actually see it I feel nothing does justice to the comedy therein... Damn! was thinking that Balayya had patent rights for such crazy movies, PK gives him a neck-to-neck competition here...

What made him do this movie?  It is like a caricature of PK... not even an enemy should do to that guy is my feeling... aa expressions enti, aa story enti, aa action enti... dialogues are good, forceful, but coming from his mouth with that body language kind of loses that effect...

tikka moodlo ee cinema kanaka chooste paityam prakopistundi.... !

Of biographies and net searches...

of late, reading biographies, especially of those in showbiz and politics, I begin to wonder where all the hard work one puts in goes and when does this facade start, too many versions, too much of confusion... and whether it is all worth it.. and also looking at such tragic events, why dont others learn not to slip... guess, popularity gives the highest of highs and leaves one in lowest of lows once it is mishandled!

I have been reading a good number of biographies of late and watching documentaries, youtube videos related to the incidents mentioned.  The news and the paparazzi as usual have been very very vague and shady about a lot of things, contradictions everywhere, giving me an impression media has always been the same then and now.. not much change...

My finds and a few more questions...
Sanjay Gandhi and his frugal life style and how could be he so misunderstood or over-criticized....
Nehru his lifestyle..
and the eternal mystery of why Indira is a Gandhi and not a Khan... ??? and a whole lot of other questions about the Gandhi-Nehru Dynasty..

MJ,

the tragic life he lead, the circumstances leading to his death... and most essentially, is he really dead???
and I for one believe that the kids were MJ's own... blanket, crazy as the name sounds looked more like MJ than any of the other kids... 

how would it to be to actually figure out an alive MJ after all the hue and cry?

Unmasked, The Final Years Of Michael Jackson - Ian Halperin

The first time I ever saw Michael Jackson was on cable tv, where they were showing his concert videos.  I did not really understand the crazy fans, the ones who were crying, jumping, screaming, running, total mania and chaos... after that I loved his song Heal The World.

Then learned about him, his child abuse cases, weddings with Lisa Presley, Debbie Rowe, the kids, the divorces, the Neverland Rach and all those things but never really took a keen interest in him.  I was in my village when he expired and only thing that I felt was pity about how lonely he was despite having everything, somehow could relate to that part of his yearning and all to be a kid.. I personally do not think he is a child molester he is portrayed to be.  He had his personal eccentric choices maybe but not molesting and that too not kids!! 

The book is by an investigative father who claims that he had his own doubts when he started writing.   The jury decision pronouncing MJ not guilty is what triggered his research and what he found in the process.  It is distressing to read how he was influenced by people how he lost control of everything.  The transcripts of interviews with Oprah, the interview of Chandler kid and a lot more kind of form the story and enables to form an opinion of him.

This is the first book I read of MJ and it more or less covered all the aspects of his life and not just his performances, rather performances take the last seat in this book. it is all about the man.

Queen of Dreams - Chitra Banerjee Divakaruni

After the super successful read of The Palace of Illusions, I have decided to pick another book of hers, yes it was indeed a good read but I am left with confusion on the narrating style...

the mother is a dream reader (if that exists) and the way the daughter always felt shut from her mother's past in India, the country of her origin, she is never let into it.  In an accident, the mother dies and the daughter finds her journals written in Bengali, which the father agrees to translate for her.  Meanwhile, a rapport builds up between the daughter and father and she gets to see the side of his which she never thought existed... it is a wonderful array of emotions, situations, incidents interwoven together.... but for simplistic reader like me.. or someone who likes easy flow of  words, the narrative is confusing... the journals, the story of the mother, the dreams, the visions, everything kind of throws me out of the flow of the story and kind of pulls me back into it...

overall, a good read... 

Indira Gandhi, An Intimate Biography - Pupul Jayakar

After reading the book on Sonia, me being me, made sure I go through a lot of youtube resources and google photos and pictures to see the timeline and incidents and about Maneka Gandhi and rest of the family, the facts and rumors and a whole lot of things.. so in that quest for the unknown which kind of keeps me going these days :), I pick up this book on Indira.

Pupul is a friend of Indira personally and for her to write this would have been a challenge had Indira been alive when she started her efforts... the author does not sound be a sycophant, kind of provides an objective view without being overtly critical... liked what I read.  The relationship between the Gandhis, the generation next and all that, incidents leading to her marriage, studies, death, so-called affairs, everything is touched up on but not dealt with enough to clarify my personal doubts  but it has been a good read which made me look up a few more things on the net and spend my sleepless nights researching the Gandhi clan much to the amusement of the OA who strongly hates Sonia and thinks she is out to ruin core India...

well, I must say I have not turned an ardent fan of the clan or a hater, but I do understand a few of things that they did.  Indira, the essence of her, I guess cannot be captured with such a tiny book, but it does a good enough job.

watching, reading - ??

Have you ever felt that having subtitles for a movie is like reading a book in superfast mode.. 'cos when I tend to turn that feature on... all my eyes do is just pop down to read it as fast as I can :)... but still the reader in me prefers that to watching the onscreen action going on.. sigh!!

ting-tong!

As usual, the sick, wheezy me back in bed with the back pain that seemingly does not go away.. just about a month of feeling getting back in track and things go back to square one... watching a lot of TV, saw Table 21, The attacks of 26/11.. loved them both, the first better.. second is a good taking but too much of dragging in Nana's modulation and long-drawn lectures rather than showcasing the courage of localites and policemen... on a lighter note, so final product after taking down one CM for RGV's eccentricities has seen the light of the day...

saw sontham, and can empathize with Namita's weight issues... :).. movie is so, so.. comedy is good.

read a couple of books... they seem good, reviews will follow..

completed 24, the television series, episode 1 back to back and vowed not to get back to the addiction... :).

being back on medication and forced restful days is not a good idea!!! get well soon... GET WELL SOON, GET WELL SOON...

Midhunam - Review - Naa Madhanam

పూర్ణిమ చాల రోజుల క్రితం ఈ సినిమా చూసి వచ్చి, చాలా బాగుంది తప్పకుండా చూద్దండి అని చెప్పినప్పటి నించి చాల చాల ఎదురు చూసాను ఎప్పుడు చూడగలనా దీన్ని అని.. అందరు ఆహ ఓహో భరణి, లక్ష్మి, బాలు అంటుంటే కనీసం ట్రైలర్ అన్నా చూడాలి అన్న ఆశ చంపుకుని మరీ ఆగాను, ఒకటే సారి ఆస్వాదించాలి అని.   మా దేశంలో ఎక్కడైనా వస్తే వెళ్దామా అంటే మా పండు గాడికి సినిమా నచ్చట్లేదు, ఇంకా youku  లో పెడతాడా, youtube లో పెడతాడా, dvd  రిలీజ్ చేస్తాడా అని ఎదురు చూసి, ఎదురు చూసి చివరాఖరికి ఇవ్వాళ youku  ఉన్న లింకు పని చేస్తోంది అని గాయత్రీ బంగారం చెప్పే పాటికి ఆహా, ఓహో, ఈహా, ఊహ, అని చింపిరి గంతులేసుకుంటూ మరీ చూసేశాను .

నాకు ఉన్న తెలుగు పరిజ్ఞానానికి, రమణ గారి పుస్తకాలు ఏవో కొన్ని తప్ప పెద్దవి ముట్టుకోడానికి నేను సాహసించలేదు, మిధునం అనే పుస్తకం పేరు కూడా వినలేదు, కాబట్టి నేను చదవలేదు, అందులో ఏమి కదా ఉందొ నాకు తెలియదు, అమ్మ నాన్నల ప్రేమకధ అంటే పాతకాలపు ప్రేమకధ అని మాత్రం అనుకున్నాను.

ఈ మధ్యన సుందరకాండ (ఛార్మి) సినిమా చూసినప్పుడు, బాపు గారి సినిమా నన్ను నిరాశ  పరిచింది... ముందు రమణ గారి పుస్తకం కదా ఎలాగుంటుందో అనిపించింది కూడా ఒక మూలన కాని తరవాత తెలిసింది అది శ్రీ రమణ గారు రాసారని... ఏది ఐతేనేమి ఒక పుస్తకానికి దృశ్య రూపం నాకు ఎప్పుడు నచ్చలేదు కాని ఈ విషయంలో మాత్రం అది అంతా నిరర్ధకం అని చూసినాక తెలిసింది.

కేవలం ఇద్దరు నటులతోటి, పల్లెటూరి వాతావరణంలో తీసిన సినిమా రెండు గంటలు ఏమి చూపిస్తారు, ఎంత బాగుంటుంది అనుకుంటే, అదిగో అక్కడ తెలుస్తుంది మనకి భరణి గారి ప్రతిభ.  నేను పుస్తకం చదవలేదు కాని రమణ గారి  మార్కు పోకుండా, కదా పట్టు సడలకుండా, ప్రేక్షకుడి ఆసక్తికి భంగం లేకుండా పూర్తి నిడివి చాలా బాగా తీశారు.  ఆ పాత్రలతో పాటు జీవించిన అనుభూతిని మిగిల్చారు.  ఇలా ఉంటే  బాగుండు అనిపించడమే కాదు సాధ్యమే అనిపించేలా చేసారు.

టైటిల్స్ దెగ్గర నించి చాలా జ్ఞాపకాలు నెమరు వేసుకున్నాను, పాటల్లో, ద్వారం లక్ష్మి గారి పేరు, కధకి మూలం మర్చిపోకుండా చెప్పడం, ఆకాశవాణి లో ఎప్పుడో ఎక్కడో, జ్ఞాపకాల పొరల మధ్యదాగుండి పోయిన గొంతులు వినడం, ఆ అనుభూతికి లోను కావడం, ఏమని వర్ణించను, ఎంతని పొగడను.  లక్ష్మి గారి నటన బాలు ప్రతిభ, ఆ ఇల్లు, వాకిలి, చెట్లు, ఆవు, దూడ చెరువు గట్టు, ఊరి మట్టి అన్నీ, ప్రతి ఒక్కటి నన్ను మరో లోకానికి తీసుకెళ్ళిపోయింది.

సినిమా సారం ఏంటి అంటే...

అమ్మమ్మదొరికావా, అర్థనారీశ్వర... విడి విడిగా వెతికాను... ఒక చోటే కలిశారా. 

 అనే చిలిపి గొంతుతో వచ్చిన బుల్లి పాట  చరణం.

అదే ఈ కధకి ప్రాణం, అప్ప దాసు, బుచ్చి లక్ష్మిల దాంపత్యానికి సారం.


ఎన్నెన్నో జ్ఞాపకాలు...

***ఇయం ఆకాశవాణి సంప్రతి వార్తాహ శ్రుయన్థామ్, ప్రవాచకః బలదేవానంద సాగర.. అంటూ సంస్కృతం వార్తలు...
***కేయూరాణి న భూషయంతి పురుషం హారాన చంద్రోజ్వలా.... సతతం వాగ్భూషణ భూషణం  అనే శ్లోకం పాట
***దూదిని ఏకడం.
***ఆ ఇంటి ప్రతి అణువు, ఇత్తడి గిన్నెలు, మట్టి అలకడం, ముగ్గులు, అటక, అరటి ఆకు భోజనం

చాలా చాలా ఇష్టమైన ఎన్నో బోలెడు జ్ఞాపకాలు అన్ని తెర  మీద కనిపించడం.. ఒక మధురమైన అనుభూతి

ఈ కాలంలో ఇలా జరుగుతుందా, అలా బ్రతకడం సాధ్యమేనా, అన్ని ఎన్నో ఆలోచనలు... మాకు ఒక కోరిక, అన్ని బాధ్యతలు తీరిపోయినాక ఊర్లో పొలం చేసుకుంటూ ఉండిపోవాలి అని, అన్ని వదిలేసి, ఈ కొత్తమోహం, కంప్యూటర్, ఇంటర్నెట్ అన్ని వదిలేసి ఉండగలమా అని ఆలోచనలు అటుంచి చాల సాధ్యం అనిపించేలా ఉంది.

ఎన్నో జ్ఞాపకాలు, కొబ్బరి ఆకు బూరలు చేసుకోవడం, మా అమ్మమ్మని గుర్తు చేసింది, తను చేసి పెడితే తన చుట్టూ పిపి డుం  డుం  అనుకుంటూ ఆడటం, తను దూది ఏకడం, వంటలు చెయ్యటం, రోట్లో రుబ్బడం, వంటలు, ఆ నీళ్ళ గుండిగలు... తనకి కూడా అప్ప దాసు లాంటి భాగ స్వామి దొరికితే జీవితం ఎంత బాగుండేది అనిపించింది ఒక్క క్షణం, తాతయ్య అంటే ఇష్టం బాగా ఉన్నా కూడా, అమ్మమ్మ కోల్పోయింది ఏంటో ఇంకా బాగా అర్థం అయ్యింది.. రేపు నేను OA  అలా ఉండగలమా అంటే అది ఒకరి చూసి కోరుకునేది, అనుకరించేది కాదు, మనసులోంచి రావాలి అని తెలుస్తోంది...

మిధునం ఒక అపురూప దృశ్య కావ్యం.

Youtube Movies

My latest pass time these days is watching telugu movies on youtube, searching for full movie.. the print is usually a very good one and I love watching it on TV, thanks to my smart Blu-Ray player ;) and ipad pair feature with you-tube in premium apps... (nenu kooda konchem konchem techie aipotunnaanocch ;)).

Sundarakanda
A Bapu-Ramana movie, a making style of their own, dialogues of their own, Charmi the naughty girl, Allari Naresh the village all-in-one journalist helping her out carry off their roles with elan.  Prema the mother and the father, Suneel Sharma, seemed so rubber-like with dubbing by SPB, seemed so out of place, so unnatural, seemed more like a drama and not a movie.. totally out of sync with any genre, basically seemed to be the same plot as that of Mutyaala Muggu with a girl kid minus the monkey who seems to be Naresh here... Pinky the tokaleni monkey, Prema's job, what they do, kota and his coterie... I wonder if I could not relate to this movie from the classic film maker... but I certainly think this taking certainly was meant to be doomed.

Mem Vayasuku Vacchaam
I would not have picked out on watching this movie if not for Youtube, but was pleasantly surprised at the content.  Tanish (the brother from Manmadhudu) plays the hero who loves a girl and wants to get married to her but she runs away seeing another girl's photo in his purse..Bharati Raja plays a cameo who listens to the whole story when the hero comes looking for the girl... What starts off like a typical inter-religious love story, takes a different turn in its mature, close to reality climax, though it is too far-fetched to show them as friends :).. The girl gives into her family wishes and marries another guy of their choice while the hero goes through all the ditched-feelings and on the verge of losing sanity period but finally comes to terms with life and moves on when he finds another girl he likes and realizes that the feelings actually did not die after one failure... absolutely very much possible... I loved watching it :).

The Palace of Illusions - Chitra Banerjee Divakaruni

This is one of the books I had been planning to read for quite some time, first I saw it in Rad's list and then started the search.  I moved back to India, had my own life to look after and then somehow the desire to read it kind of went down.  Now that I have an access to a good library, hunted it down and got it.  No, absolutely not disappointed at all the effort.  It has really made me sit up and read it in one go.

I do not know how far it is true, this version of MahaBharatha through the eyes of Paanchaali, a woman who had 5 husbands, which is kind of unheard of for human beings.  I always had this nagging feeling, how must she have felt and how the hell had she managed her thoughts from not drifting to others when with one person or even if she did, how did she mask it from being obvious.  How was the domestic life and all that.  The author kind of puts an end to all those thoughts, though a fiction, I kind of found my answers to a lot of questions.  The book shows the internal conflict of Draupadi, married to 5 Kunti-Putras on their mother's words but deep within pined for the eldest, Karna.  The way she was responsible for yuga-changing history, the way she led her life, the way she saw herself, explored her inner feelings and bared it to the readers.  It might be mahaa-paapam to even think of the noble pativratas or something like that but I must say, it makes it all the more easy to relate to 'cos that character thinks like one of us... I enjoyed reading it thoroughly..

When I first saw Daana Veera Soora Karna with OA, he told me that Draupadi seeking Karna as 6th husband in her deepest desires as some fragment of fertile NTR's imagination and how his Brahmin friends kind of banned that movie as well as a lot of NTR's movies which showed the regular villains in better light, as having more morals, courage but stuck by circumstances, like glorifying Ravana and Duryodhana, the evil personified characters of greatest Indian Scriptures and accused him of tampering with sacred stuff... since then that part of Bharata intrigued me a lot and for a person growing up like I did, this book makes a very interesting read...!